with the amount of time spent learning how to do all this film processing, trying to do things in the most efficient and correct ways, making mistakes, figuring out how to fix or compensate for those mistakes. i’ve learned to even more appreciate music. a lot of these are throwbacks of some of the first bands that got me into post-rock/ambient music, but they still resonate with me. so here’s memorytapes:two, hope you enjoy.
my film advance has been acting weird lately, so i only got thirteen shots on this roll. anyways, this is fresh fuji 160ns shot through my fuji ga645zi over the course of a day spent with my best friend in the back country of florida. towards sunset, we ended up at the citrus county speedway for some real florida man style racing, and it was a pretty fucking awesome. a guy there even told us that “shit is much more simple here” and i’m not mad at that.
all of these were shot on a contax g1 / carl zeiss 45mm planar over the course of (i hate to say it) about five months. processed at home. negatives scanned with a nikon coolscan v ed. for whatever reason, the g1 kit didn’t feel right for me when i first started using it, so i put it away for awhile. these photos are so sharp for 35mm – and i see the hype around the lens now: it’s so sharp and versatile. typically a 45mm lens would be too ‘close’ for me, but it’s helped me work on composing shots a little differently. you’ve got to work a little harder to fit what you want in the frame, but i think i’m okay with that.
i’m still trying to find the direction i want to take this. it’s turning out harder than i expected to do anything but just post photos. i’m so jaded by seeing people try so hard, to ‘create content’. even in the film community, they obsess over instagram. i never wanted to put all this time and effort into photos that would be looked at for a quarter of a second, double tapped, and then never looked at again. fuck that, that isn’t me. i want to live my life and take photos of the people/places/things that make it worth remembering. i want to take better photos. i want to try new development methods, learn how to shoot long exposures without blowing the lights out so fucking bright, publish my photography in print on the walls of my favorite places, make a photo-book. i just want to keep learning. so for now, all that makes sense is to keep taking pictures.
some of these were shot on an xa2 and some were shot on a nikon 35ti. all scanned in on a nikon cool scan v ed. a roll of fuji superia 400 from our atlanta trip that i thought was lost forever somehow turned up, and the first and last roll i put through a nikon 35ti, super expired portra 160nc.
a thirty year expired roll of velvia 50 shot over the course of two months and processed/scanned by the darkroom. it was a weird time for me, and i struggled to find inspiration to take photos with my brain preoccupied with my own shit. people come and go and this for me is a reminder of that. when i look at each of them i remember where i was at in my own head, so in this case i don’t really feel like i was trying to capture anything but my own feelings. sixteen images from this roll of 220 are up in physical form at cafe hey. thanks for looking.
ps: i listened to this album on repeat for pretty much a month straight. it’s phenomenal and helped me through it.
trying to play catch up and get some of these photos somewhere other than in my dresser drawer. just some medium format shots (with my apparent affinity for telephone poles) from the last few months. from tampa/dade city/sarasota/st. petersburg/brooksville.
last night was the first run of developing at home in my bath tub, with some guidance from dylan. everything was scanned in at 1:27-2:03AM. i really should sleep more. some weird tones that make me feel like i did something wrong, and i’m still trying to figure out what. gotta start somewhere.
i’m going to try and use this to share music as well. so here is some stuff i’ve been into this week. obviously still pretty heavy on the emo jams. in other news: i’m starting to develop at home and am excited to focus my energy on photography again, without the end result being anything to do with social media. dylan and i have a few shows coming up and it makes me want to go out and take pictures and i love that feeling.
i got asked to play some records at emo night, and it was a lot of fun. this is the track list i put together due to being super nervous about using two turntables at the same time. turns out, it wasn’t that tough and i ended up playing a lot more than i intended (and brought way too many records). this playlist covers about 85% of what i played.
ps: the photos are from a roll of film theo (half of emo night tampa) took thru tsa in his camera. they haven’t really seen the light of day since i scanned them in, so here they are. he only for three visible shots back off the whole roll due to the x-rays.